Confidence and self- love. Two very big and essential words in life. Two words I never thought I would ever be able to feel myself, to be honest. Ever since I’ve been a little child, I was always rather shy than others, but only on the first glimpse. I wouldn’t let many people in, but as soon as I did, and they get to know me better, they will eventually have to deal with the bubbly and overall crazy version of myself. It’s never been easy for me to let my guard down for others, but when I meet people that I feel like trusting, I certainly do so.
Considering my past experiences, I tend to do that way too early though. I trust people, open up to them, before I get the chance to discover that they are not at all how I thought they would be. And why is that so? Because I tend to see the good in people. I am not the kind of person, who would ever think of someone’s hidden cruel intentions at first. The reason for that, so I’m guessing, has so far been my rather low self-esteem. I never thought of myself as a strong, beautiful, and worthy woman. I wouldn’t understand why someonewould actually like me for who I am, because I wouldn’t fully accept myself the way I am. And how do you expect someone to like you if you don’t even like yourself? Yes, exactly- not possible ladies!
It took me a while to get aware of that, but as soon as I did, everything seemed to have changed. I saw myself in a way I never had before. I was self-confident, strong, and I stood up for who I am. I still am way too kind for this world though, but anyhow. That is who I am and I don’t think I will ever be able to completely drop that character trait, but instead, I learned something way more important: I learned how to protect myself in a better way. And that is something I can only advise you guys: start thinking of yourself first, and then of the needs of others! Even if it might seem selfish at first, it is the best you can do for yourself. People come and go in your life, but you will have to deal with yourself forever.
And something else to give you along the way: stop winding and crying over mistakes you made in your past. It won’t change anything because it happened in the past and everybody knows you cannot change the past! Rather, look forward and watch out for upcoming events, so you won’t make the same mistakes again. You learn from them. They may tear you down for a while, but you will always come back, just as a stronger version of yourself.
Have a good one!
Lots of love,